Toni’s Thoughts: The going ons in my head…

You know I am one of those friends who is a good friend to the end and I usually end up getting burned for it.

I am one of those people who like to think everyone has some sort of good in them and it has blinded me to peoples faults.

I don’t understand why parents would not want to be in a childs life or why they would put people before their child.

I can’t comprehend why a parent doesn’t make the effort to get to know the child they claim they love.

I don’t understand how so many people can tell you something and you choose not to see it for what it really is.

I am thankful that my eyes are finally opened and I could see people for who they really were.

I am sad I was used and people pretended to care only to have them turn their backs on me when I was of no use to them anymore.

I am sad I have lost trust in people.

I am sorry for all the people I pushed aside in the past and were rude to when I never should have been that way. I am amazed that those same people welcomed me with open arms, which says a lot about their character.

I am happy I have real friends I can talk to everyday who have been in the exact same position as me and who have the same feeling I do of frustration and anger.

I am ecstatic to have so many friends who have stood by me and stuck up for me even when I wouldn’t stick up for myself….those are my REAL friends!

I wonder what kind of person it makes you if you sit and listen to gossip and never speak up, even when the person being gossiped about is your friend.

I think why would you not stand up for a friend.

I wonder do you eventually turn our like the people you hang out with, even if they are a bad person inside or can morals really win out if you are so influenced by that person.

Why do people use people

My kids are my life and they make life worth living

The smile on my childrens faces lights up the room

I love the moments when my child wants to love on me.

My daughter can definetly hold her own and I feel sorry for her brothers whom she takes out the brunt of her frustrations on most of the time.

I really wish she would get past this “shut up stupid” and spitting phase.

I can’t wait to go to Six Flags, Ripleys, House of mirror’s, the wax musuem, and NKOTB!!!!!!!!!

I have my clothes all packed, I couldn’t decide on which out fit so I took 8 for a 3 day trip.

I will probably end up going to the mall and buying something to wear regardless so I probably don’t need all those clothes.

I hope I don’t get sick on the roller coasters or pee my pants in the haunted houses.

I really wish my hubby would call to see what I want for dinner, so now I must go and call him I guess.


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Hi! I'm Toni. I am a happily married, christian, momma of 3 living on Florida's sunny Gulf Coast. I am a lifestyle blogger and Seint Arist. I started blogging when my last child was born as a way to share my love of all things travel, cooking, beauty, recipes, and more. Now pull up a chair, grab a glass of sweet tea and let's get to know each other. I truly hope you enjoy getting A Daily Dose of Toni!


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    Toni, I don’t know what’s going on in your life, but I wanted to say whatever it is…it will pass. I felt many of the same emotions you describe and it cuts very deeply, especially with friends. But remember, you can’t wear a shield of armor or no one will ever know and love you for who are. Big hugs to you!

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    Toni…you are so very right. Life can be messy and sometimes it is better to walk away from those who will just create clutter in your mind and heart – even when it hurts.

    Hugs to you.

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    I hear ya, and it sucks. I haven’t had a close friend in many years because of the way “friends” have treated me in the past. Your a great person Toni and only deserve the best of what a person can give.

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    (((hugs))) from Heather L (from A Mom’s Place) or, was it the place that shall not be…. never mind! Hope things get better!

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    It does truly suck to be in that position, which is why I currently have no real friends. I am gun shy. I trust everyone and end up being the door mat! Hang in there! There are still good people in the world. Email or call me some time!!!

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    I have a couple close friends and that is why, unlike some people I don’t need to have tons of friends to feel like I am someone one..just so the minute you turn your back said friends are stabbing you in it. I would rather have a handful of good friends that you can count on and trust then a boat load that you can’t.
    I’m sorry if you are going through a rough time right now. As for the parents thing, I’m not sure if you are talking about yours or just bad ones in general,but I do have rotten ones and even though ,I know I’m better off without them…I still wonder what did I ever do to be born into a life with those two idiots as my parents.

    Be happy in the fact you have a man that loves you and kids that do too and anyone else ,forget about them…they are not worth it!

    Remember you are not alone, big hugs to you!

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    You only know true friends when you really need them. Sorry for what you’re going through but enjoy your trip and your time with your family. It sounds like a fun time and just what you need right now!

    Brain Foggles

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    Karen of Sillymonkeez

    Toni, I am so sorry to hear you are feeling the way you do. I hope whatever is causing it gets better soon. (((hugs)))

    You have an award waiting for you here . . .

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    Melissa, Multi-Tasking Mama

    Been there several times- wondering why I have trusted people, when others warned me not to and end up getting my heart trampled…it hurts- but only until you realize that it has made you a stronger and better person who didn’t need stupid people like that in your life anyway…hugs and prayers, my friend- this too shall pass.

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    I don’t know what’s going on with you but I’m sorry you’re feeling so badly. people suck. very few people suprise me in a good way. I wish it weren’t so but all we can do is to try never to do to anybody else the things that hurt us so.

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    Awe Toni your thoughts are inspirational. You know I see a lot of myself in your words and I can say I see you as a kind and forgiving person. It takes someone very specal to be open to others as well. smooches!