It’s Official, We Are Literally Broke

I really had hoped this day wouldn’t come, I have had faith and God has provided so far, but now we have some bills that are a few days past due and many more coming.  This is the scary part, the job situation is looking great but obviously we can’t hurry them along into the official hiring day so until then what can I do?

I am upset that it has taking this long even though it’s been a wonderful faith building time.  I am upset that I am have to worry about our bills lapsing, utilities being cut off, and how we are going to pay our mortgage until we get the official you’re hired.  Even then we still have to wait for the first paycheck.  I am at a loss and it’s out of my control.  Well unless I decided to rob a bank, but spending my life in jail and doing something illegal is not they path I choose to take LOL (trying to make humor in a very un-humorus situation).

I am doing the works along with my faith, after all faith without works is dead.  BUT what in the world else can I do?  I can’t snap and make finances appear, I can’t click my heels together and make the company call saying this is the start day (though I hope they do).  I am going to donate plasma, at least that will be something I guess but still not  in time and not enough.  Everything we have worked so hard for is hanging by a thread.

I am annoyed at the company for letting him go, when he is the one who worked so hard for them even after he knew he was being let go.  We are in a situation right now we should not have to be.  I am at a loss, I am anxious, I am scared.  I am all the things I have tried so hard not to be during this time.  I have had faith and by a tiny piece of thread I still do but my flesh and my thoughts are taking over.  I guess now is the time to press in harder, get in the word and hold onto faith and trust in God like never before.

I don’t like the unknown or not knowing how I am going to provide for my children and yet this is what has been put on my plate. I just hope today is the day there is something miraculous that ignites the explosion in my faith.  Until then I will keep holding on by the strand I have.  You just have to have faith the side of a mustard seed for miracles to happen!

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Hi! I'm Toni. I am a happily married, christian, momma of 3 living on Florida's sunny Gulf Coast. I am a lifestyle blogger and Seint Arist. I started blogging when my last child was born as a way to share my love of all things travel, cooking, beauty, recipes, and more. Now pull up a chair, grab a glass of sweet tea and let's get to know each other. I truly hope you enjoy getting A Daily Dose of Toni!


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    Hi Toni! I am so sorry for what you and your family are going through and I’m mad at the company for you guys, too! Your blog is so amazing and I wish you could get paid an incredible salary for it as it’s such a gift and blessing to the world! I will be praying for you all and I can’t imagine what you are going through! Your strength and faith is inspiring and I know that even the mustard seed faith will help get you through this hard, scary time. Thinking of you and praying! I love your blog so much and thanks for sharing the good and bad times! You are an incredible lady! HUGS!

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    I don’t know any advice to offer you, but I wanted to applaud you for airing your thoughts on here. Others are in the same boat and need to know they aren’t alone, as do you. It looks as though you have the right focus, and I know it is hard to wait on God. I will be praying for you and your situation.

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    Hugs to you!! I don’t know what I’d do if we ended up in that situation though it is a constant thought in my head as we are strapped and barely making it pay check to pay check!!

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    I have been praying for y’all and will continue to.